Well, this is my first post on a blog just to let you know I was here. I must be feeling lucky. I've had your mother and I do a little bit of video recording. Something to let you know later on in life how we were feeling before you were even announced that you'd be coming into our life.
It's around 10:48. I'm feeling anxious. I'm tired but I don't think I can want to sleep. This is the hardest part of the whole thing - waiting to see if you're going to be who you are.
It takes up to 3 days for you to do the little bit of magic you need to do. And then on November 26th - yep my birthday - your arrival will hopefully be announced. I'd like to say it will be - but you've delayed your arrival before - and I would hate for you to do it again.
Your mother and I watched a movie. Um... Miss Potter. We ate sandwiches from Togo's (Do they still have these in the future?) :)
I played Call of Duty 2. (Hmmm I wonder if I'm still a gamer in the future) and then I decided to write this blog. I'll invite your mom as well, perhaps she'll have something more interesting to say.
Gosh, I'm boring aren't I? Oh well, Someday you'll read these silly words.
You know one thing that comes to mind is the movie Father of the Bride II - It's not the best movie - Actually I think the first one was better. The point is - there is a part near the end where the father is holding two babies - one from his wife, the other from his daughter. If I remember right there is a voiceover that says something along the lines of that "at that moment he knew it was what life is all about". My eyes watered then at the point in the movie, I must have been 21 years old at that time. And right now when I think about the possibility that is you - my eyes water and I think I realize that maybe that's the moment I've been searching for.
Maybe that doesn't make sense.
Anyway, maybe my next entry I'll talk about some fears I have. Everyone has them, most people don't talk about them, but I think I should write them down for you. Maybe someday my fears will explain something I did and you couldn't figure out why I did it. Perhaps maybe it will just let you know who I am more than I could ever tell you in person. For now all this will be hidden away and waiting for you.
Hidden on the Internet... hmmm that's silly. Oh well... Maybe it will just be here waiting for you to read it when you're ready to do so.
I don't know who you are, but I love you. And if you never read this I love who you could have been. That sounds a bit negative, I know - but to be honest I'm scared of that possibility. Scared of not bringing you into this crazy world. Scared of not being able to watch you grow, talk back, become a royal pain, and of course read this someday to criticize my grammar.
Oh enough is enough. Let's get day one of our second trial over with.
Love ya future baby(s)!
Is there one or two of ya? Okay okay... I'll be patient.
-Daddy Jer
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